the howling bear

weddinz

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 02:44:01 GMT

Friday was the wedding. It was pretty good, except for the lack of decent pictures. Fucking... ugh... why can't anyone take pictures in my family?! All photographers will probably cringe looking at the few GOOD pictures I have heres.

We went to Governor's Park, in LoDo, where it was really quiet and really green. I mean trees. And grass. It's kind of a luxury. Grass hates our yard and the few trees we have are crappy. And there weren't any hobos (which was what I was most afraid of...).

My parents and us. LOL Brian's face. I think I'd be making the same face if my mom were touching me, too. >_>

Me and my friend from work Ashley.

Awwww. I don't look pleased. XD I think I'm trying not to smile so much. The whole time I had an ear to ear grin.

MY ASS. D: And shameless Shane Co. advertisement. XD Omg, you can see my engagement ring from here! My wedding band is very thin, and it contours to the shape of my other ring. It's got like 8 teeny little diamonds suck in it. It's soooo pretty. I get SO many people stairing at my rings now. X_X.

You may kiss de bride! I should edit the judge's head out. XD Afterwards, B goes "did I scare you when I had to kiss you?" And I was like "totally, I wasn't sure what side you were gonna go on!" and he goes, "I wanted to hide~" Awww. Cute. But I wanted to hide. D:

For lunch, we went to the Cheesecake Factory, where I had an appletini and got tipsy off of it. We gave my dad a toast (where he shat a brick, he was so OMG!) and yeah. The Denver CF is down the 16th Street Mall, and it's INSANE. I've never been there, but it was pretty tight. For those of you who aren't from CO, it's a mall that seriously, takes up like 20 blocks. CITY BLOCKS. There's a free train you can take, too, so on the way back, we took it. We weren't going to walk 8 blocks again. And we weren't on it for but 5 minutes when the driver HIT SOMEONE! It wasn't her fault, I think the guy thought he could run in front of it before it started moving and he failed.

Then Brian and I went up to the mountains. I wanted to go shootin' cuz I haven't been in so long. I brought the camera to take random pictures of us for the hell of it. I like this one. It tickles me. I'm about to make sweet sweet love to Bessie~

Loki's doing well. He does very good at the shooting range. He just sleeps. And no, he isn't allowed to free-roam. Jeez.

I made friends with a black fox up in the mountains, too. I named her Awesomer (she looks like this little black kitty who lives by my house here by the same name) and she's like a silver-black with a white tipped tail. B and I were walking Loki in the evening when we saw her, so I said, "Hey Awesomer!" and she started to COME OVER! I was like O_O! She came to check Loki out (who began going into stalking mode when she got close) but she just kept walking. She got like within 10 feet of us.. and then almost walked into a car (who had also stopped to look).
Tomorrow, I go to see the Killers. I'm so excited. I'm buying a t-shirt. Expect pictures. :D

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 22:02:23 GMT

On Friday, I had this job interview. It went pretty well, lasted a little over an hour... and I think the boss really likes me. It's for a candle supply company, I would just be labeling packages, data entry and some receptionist stuff, but the first thing the boss asks me is about my freelance illustration stuff. I didn't bring any samples with me because I figured this was just an office job, and they'd have no interest seeing my portfolio, but he wouldn't let it rest. He asked me what things I could do, what programs I use (even though I said it on my resume... which he had a copy of) and if I could do photo editing. He asked me several times if I would be okay doing design work along with my other duties and of COURSE I said yes! He said, "ohhh, yeah, that could be an asset!" and I'm like "pfft, look at my website. The hell it 'could be'!"

He then put huge circles around my email and phone number and asked me twice if these were correct/current. Of course. :3

He said he would let me know some time this week. Ugh, I can't wait anymore. The suspense, it is killing me. He had more interviews today, so I don't know if I should call them up or wait until tomorrow to do so (though I don't know why he just didn't cancel them ;D). It's only 5 minutes from my house. I shit you not. It's the greatest commute EVER. And then they're looking to move the company DOWN THE STREET from me. AWESOME. I also pointed that out, and he was like OMG no wai!

I feel very good about this job. Everyone else who works there is either just a little older than me or as old as me. Yay no teenagers! And as it's a candle shop as well, it smells DELICIOUS! AND it's not retail! Holidays? I has them. No more dumbasses or stupid hours for me. 8:30-5, Mon-Fri. Oh yeah. Did I mention I get my weekends back?

Weekends~

How I have missed them. I have tried for the past 3 weeks to obtain them from work, being denied each time. I've told my bosses countless times I cannot work weekends anymore. I have too much going on, and then when I try to get time off, they deny me. So I called in last Sunday, even though I was legitimately sick with food poisioning (I shat 13 times in 26 hours VIOLENTLY and got NO sleep) and then that ended up working out pretty well because Brian was only able to come home on Sunday last week. Sad. I usually get to see him for a few days, not just one. He was like, "Dude, call out today. This is the ONLY time I get to see you." And I was shitting everywhere... so yeah, I called out. Then Wednesday, I was talking to one of my managers, and she SERIOUSLY asked me, "It's unacceptable that you have weekends off, and that you only work mornings. We all dream of an 8-5 job. Why would you even TRY to change?" I explained to her that it's for my (tiny) family, and she was like "there is nothing we can do."

Well take your weekendless job and FUCKING SHOVE IT.

Also, lol at her.

No. It's a crock of lies, I tell you. They can change it. It is not manditory that I have my weekends open. My Target is fucking cheap when it comes to hiring new people. They will not do it. We've been shorthanded for MONTHS now, and they just hired two new people. Bullshit. And next week, for 5 hours, I get to be a cashier. Um. Hello. I didn't go to college to run a cash register.

So then yesterday, Brian is like, "It's just a shitty job. It's not even a real job. It's TARGET. It's an unimportant job and they can replace you just as easily. So call in." And I wanted to, I just couldn't do it. I told him I know this is a shitty job, but it's a responsibility... but then... so is being with my teeny starting family. So he did. And they didn't like what he had to say. He talked to the same boss that asked me why I thought I could change.

He told her I wasn't coming in today. She asked if I were available to talk. He said no, I wasn't, because he wasn't letting me (lol). She goes "umm?" He then FIRMLY told them I wasn't able to work weekends anymore, namely Sunday because he works 6 days a week, and this is the only day he gets to spend with me. So she says, rather angrily now, "So she's not coming in because of YOU?" and he says kinda like a smartass, "YES. SHE CAN'T WORK WEEKENDS."

Well, two things are going to happen at work now. I'm going to get shit for this from the boss AND rumors are probably going to start floating around about my "abusive boyfriend." Looool. Despite the fact I have a massive rock on my finger, people only seem to notice it when it waggles in front of their faces. I think it's my personality. Same thing if I cut my hair. And I'm going to get "written up" but seriously, are we in fucking kindergarden or something?! Or fired. To which I will say, "NO, I QUIT! >:|"

He's not abusive, btw. He's never even been mad with me. We've never had an argument, either. :D He just wants lines that are drawn to be FUCKING DRAWN, if you know what I mean. Obvious? Yes. They should be obvious.

I hate that job, anyways. It doesn't pay enough for the bullshit I must endure.

I took Loki to the dog park today. There were only like 7 dogs or so, and this one kept pestering Loki to play and be dominated. He would put his chin on Loki's neck and nip his ears. It wasn't too hard, and most of the time, he didn't have his mouth open... so I guess he was just pushing? Loki ignored him the whole time, and the owner thought it was kinda funny. Well, it was. I woulda been upset if he were actually biting, but he wasn't so.. yeah. And this lady had two collie-mix puppies (maybe 4 months) who had no training. I mean, she was trying, but she wasn't doing it right. I wanted to give her a hand but I didn't want to seem like an ass. They kept following me around to play, too. :D And there was this short-haired pointer who was behaving quite odd... actually... neurotically... it was running and running and then OMG A BIRD and it would YELP. And spin, and yelp and just go crazy. Reminded me of my aunt's hunting dog who didn't get exercise. I didn't know who's dog it was because no one was paying any attention to it. Then about 50 minutes of being there, this disgusting hippie/yuppie woman shows up with a 3 year old boy. She makes him take the leash (they had no dog with them) and she walks over and SITS in this busy grassy area. SHE SITS where the dogs have been pissing and shitting. Ew. EW EW EW. Her son was still at the door of the park. A 3 year old. Alone. DOG PARK. This is asking for trouble. They also ahve signs that say NOT to bring kids in. They're just too small and dogs are rough.

The son comes and curls up in the lady's lap. They're still sitting on a bathroom floor, essentially. Then the dogs start climbing over them. "Ohh, wow, so warm!" Uh. Sure. Loki doesn't, Loki is kinda shy around people. He runs away from people who try to pet his head. Then the pointer comes over and it's glaringly obvious this is their dog. It pushes the little boy off of his mom's lap and tries to curl up there. "Awww, wow, I love you, too, look, Billy, Scruffy loves us." The little boy is like :C Then like 5 feet to the left of them, Loki lifts his leg towards them and pees. They didn't even MOVE. I mean, none got on them, but the thought of pee... eww. SHE WAS EVEN WATCHING HIM.

Seeing as the mom was a hippie thing, I think she was like, "ohh, the sacred golden dog rain. He's watering the plants!"

Then they go to take the psycho dog home. He's pulling on the leash like mad. Wow. This is a dog park, not a fucking kennel. What if the dog got out? What if he got stolen? What if he attacked someone?

wahahahaha

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 16:05:04 GMT

http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/myshot/dogs/infinite-photograph

I COULD DO THIS ALL DAY! PUPPPPIEEEESSS!!!

I was at work yesterday, unloading some boxes of back to school shit, and I opened one and on top of the comp books was a print out of a teeny rottie puppy. He looked just like Loki, so I had to keep it. :P

I am going today to go make prints of my portfolio. Woooo!

OMG OMG OMG

Sat, 23 May 2009 11:31:25 GMT

We're camping, right, and I got up at 5 to walk Loki.

I SAW ITS TRACKS. THE TRACKS.

THEN I SAW THE MOOSE. :O

This is gonna be a good trip!

wiiiiiiiiiiibblesssss

Tue, 05 May 2009 16:07:07 GMT

I just found my BFF from highschool via the Facebook.

Webber.

WEBBER.

I mentioned her 1000000000000 times in the span of this LJ's life. Just not the last... um... couple years.

Webber~

Though I don't know if I'll try to talk to her or not, still might be kinda hard to (she found Jesus, remember?). And I don't think she'd care for half of the shit I do now (drink, draw porn, live with someone I'm not married to -yet- )... My only defense for it is "I don't drink THAT much, only like once every two weeks and I don't get drunk when I do!" and "IT'S FOR THE MONEY!!!" and "We're getting married after I graduate, which is soon!" Doesn't sound convincing to me.

Iunno. Just kinda bummed, I guess.

But Nani is coming over later! WOOO!

SHI SHI SHI SHIIINE ONNNN

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 18:36:46 GMT

This is my last month of school. I have my fingers crossed that I can get a job straight out of it and I don't have to keep working retail. I hate it. I want to create stuff. GAH!

I have been reinventing my comic idea... I used to post about it all the time, "The Asylum." It's totally getting a face lift. I'm also rewriting most of the character's bios and redesigning some of them. I am stoked about it, but don't want to commit to it until after I get a good job. I'll need help with it, so I've been sorta looking for a comic artist in Denver. I've had no luck so far, but again I've barely been looking cuz of not wanting to start on it yet. Also think I'll get it published online, so... webcomic. The main character, Ixora, was totally a lesbo, but I've since decided to make her asexual, but she still has that lesbian vibe about her and I don't know how to fix it. DX It's kinda annoying!

I've also got a low-budget film company looking at my art and hiring me as a monster designer. Hopefully, I'll know the results next week. :D

I've got a FUCKTON of commissions lately. It's nice to be busy and stuff.

Today is cleaning day. Today is payday. I finally got accepted for a credit card. Not like I have bad credit, though. I just have no history.

I have been in the Springs most of this week, visiting my family. They wouldn't leave me alone about it! And now I'm back, Ergo won't leave me alone. He's all "you were gone sooo long LOVE ME" and it's kinda annoying. My sister is also visiting... uh... yeah. XD He's gonna be 5 soon.

I bought Pokemon Platinum. Cuz I love that game. I'm such a geek over it.

Searching to get a new gun. There's two I want: A .44 Desert Eagle and a 20g pump-action shotgun. I saw one in Gander Mtn. and I fell in love with it. I want a shotgun cuz I kinda wanna get into hunting... and I want the Desert Eagle cuz it's badass and I can't handle the .50. Next I have to get a rifle of large-sorts because I want to take an elk or deer. Yummmm. Granted all of this costs a LOT of money so I'm waiting on it... the cheapest one was the shotgun cuz the one I was looking at was like $700. X_X Hunting liscenses for elk are like $1200, anyways. So... bah. D:

MINDBLOWING AWESOME

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 02:38:25 GMT

SO on Saturday, Brian took me to go see Watchmen. Now. I don't know diddly-squat about it. I only know what a couple people have said. I also know that back in the day, like 9th grade, a guy I liked tried to explain it to me. Uh, yeah. It's not easily explainable, so it made no sense.

I ALSO have heard that you won't really understand the awesomeness unless you've read the comic. So after the movie, I dragged Brian to Borders to buy it for me. I'm like... mostly through it and already the movie makes a fuckton more sense. :D I will have to go back to see it again when I am done, clearly.

I REALLY liked Dr. Manhattan and Rorschach. The other guys, ok. Nite Owl was soooo 80's. Like the epitome of the 80's. I didn't like the chick (see, I didn't make any effort to remember her name) she was such a ho. But DAMN. What blew me away was the depth of the characters. In the book, they have that same amount of depth, but it's like... I can't figure out what gives them that depth. It's not so much the art, and I know the diction has something to do with it... but its' like they have auras, ON PAPER. It's awesome!

Brian liked the chick. When we get out of the theater, he goes, "SHE HAD A NICE ASSSSSS... but that was all she had going for her." I laughed. Then got mad. XD And then we went into a Brookstone and Brian got mistaken for a chick. WOW. How do you fuck that up, he hadn't shaved in a week.

It seems I have quite the pottymouth. :X

After I finish my homework, I want to go snuggle up with the comic and possibly do fanart. :D

information travels faster

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 06:27:12 GMT

So the weekend was pretty grood. I got to hang out with Nani and her and I and Brian all went out for AWESOME BUFFET. And it was delicious. We then went over to Gander Mountain and I got a couple boxes of ammo and Nani got a plushie. Gander has these super soft ones and I want like all of them. D:<

It's also really hard to find anything for ammo, I have started to notice...

Then we drove home, and I got drunk so I don't remember too much. No, I don't drink much at all anymore. I had promised Nani I wouldn't have anything to drink until her birthday, so when I did drink, it kicked my ass. In a good way. But now I have a freezer full of red roosters. Like. There is no room for ANYTHING. Soooo I must eat them and be merry. :3

Nani spent the rest of the weekend absorbed into Twilight Princess and Brian and I kinda farted around. He made me a chain of old shells (like... from my behbeh) and I hung them from around my rear-view mirror. Now, I must get some kind of badass (gun inspired) shifter knob and a suicide knob. Lots of knobs to buy. I don't know if they are illegal here or not. Buuuut... Autozone sells them, so what the fuck? I still need a bra. Hahahahaa.

Then on Sunday I took Nani home. I think it's sorta pretty up where she lives, in an eerie sort of way. I hope she's doin' ok now.

I've been crate training Loki all week, and we've had to start putting him in there when we leave. He wasn't ready for it, but he's started to tear the door up. He's tried to eat the doorknob and door frame. And then he's clawed up the linoleum on the floor. We were gonna replace it anyways, but damn. So we stuck him in there, and he's a whole lot quieter, that's for sure.

He just... panics when he's alone. It's fuckin' not cool.

OH and then we bought all the stuff I will need for my garden. I started planting seeds tonight. I'm so excited! 8D

Brian and I had an interesting talk today, and if this doesn't explain Colorado, I don't know what will:

B: "It feels like JUNE out today! It's only March, I can't imagine what June'll feel like."
Me: "March."

furries

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 03:06:31 GMT

The hardcore ones creep me the fuck out. D: I get so weirded out looking at wtf_fa . The posters usually freak me out there, too... like... I dunno, say awful things about things that are supposed to be funny (especially when it's drawn really well). Like ohhhh, they have no sense of humor. Boo hoo. And FA is sorta turning into a Myspace. NOT FUCKING COOL. GTFO MY FA. D:<

Anywho, I am on a new art site now, lookit this. moonbyrn.artspots.com/

It's much more quieter than FA. No pronz (which is nice) and grood art. It's delicious. I haven't updated it much yet for some silly reason. :o

Our house is pretty much... a house now. We finally got a couch (my parents' comfy old couch), a bedroom set and a TV. So glad we got the bedroom set, I was living out of a laundry basket for like EVER. Still don't have a washer and dryer, though. But its all good cuz I make B take the laundry with him to do in the mountains.

Got to go to the shooting range and before hand, I went to the thrift store and got a HUGE pony plush. I love ponies, but the pony just assssked to be target practice. He's not quite annihilated yet, but I got one of his giant plastic eyes within the first clip. I was shooting so fast I wasn't really looking to see when I got it. :P It was like powder, but still in an eye shape... until I touched it. :D

I got the new Animal Crossing. Once I get internets set up, you cats must give me your info. Which... hopefully, will be later this week. Then I went and bought Star Fox Adventures, which Imma go play now. :P

hey livejojojojournal

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 18:08:29 GMT

How are you? I hear I don't update in you enough.

Okay, sooooo, I've moved the HELL out of my aunt's house and I am in me and Brian's new house! Yaaaay! Some walls came down, I plumbed (and failed-we had a leak!) and I started painting my office BRIGHT FUCKING ORANGE. Seriously, when the sun shines on it, it gets so bright in here. Haven't really met the neighbors (hell, I've barely seen them) and I'm not really sure if they speak English or not. Met one guy and he said if we needed anything, let him know. So that's cool. This is a really quiet street we're on, too, it's so nice compared to living at my aunt's.

Apparently, there was some drama on New Year's. But I wasn't there, I was chillin' with Brian and Nani up in the mountains. My aunt got completely hammered (she'd been holding back for couple months, it was impressive) but she started telling my parents what a cunt I was, how I had no social skills (because I never spent any time with them) and that my dog was as much of a cunt as I was. o_O Sooooo, my parents left her house at like 11, and went to Jace's ex-parents-in-laws to crash. He's still good friends with them (his ex-wife's parents and such).

I still don't know everything that was said. Jace did tell her (he yelled) to shut the fuck up. It musta been good.

A little before New Years, B bought me a home protection device. Meet the Behbeh: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jericho_941

Already took it to the shooting range a couple times, it's actually really fun. Really fucking loud, though. The first time, we didn't have much to shoot at, so we found a piece of cardboard and I drew an angry naked man on it. I shot him right in the eye, hahaha. Second time, Nani and I made targets... like... plastic bottles and filled them with water and food coloring. It was awesome to see them splatter all in the snow. Brian rigged them to one of those cheap clothes-drying racks which... didn't make it. I forget what he has, some 9mm machine gun thing, but he crippled it. Mine's biggerrrr! >:D

One of the targets had water in it and had been outside for a while (so it was frozen solid). It SHATTERED when I shot it. It was cool. Next time, we get fruits to shoot.

I learned how to clean it, oil it and once I get the monies, I'll be taking a class on the basic knowledge of firearms and how to handle them. Then I can go get my CCL and carry the behbeh around. I mean, these streets are pretty quiet, I feel comfortable walking Loki at night, but a couple streets over, it turns into like... the getto. What if some kids decide to go have fun on some other street? I don't want to be the butt of their jokes... or anything. Or be a rape victim. Fuck that shit.

I dunno. Loki doesn't look "nice and fluffy" so I don't think at first glance people would bother us. I still think he has some protection abilities (he barks and growls when people knock) but... I 'm not sure.

Also, I been lookin' for a new job. Work... sucks. I need more than 12 or 14 hours a week. Brian says I need to get something that doesn't require I work weekends, so retail is out of the question. Hmm.

winter

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 16:52:57 GMT

FIRST NEGATIVE DEGREE DAY OF THE YEAR!

Let's celebrate!

It's -1 and SNOWY. We expect more, too!!!

Why is it warmer in the mountains?

Loki vs Snow

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 19:19:04 GMT

Loki LOVES snow.

Up in the Dillon/Silverthorne area, we got like 6 more inches on the 6 inches we had and then 4 more on the 12 we had. Made for a fun time! YAY SNOW DRIVING!!!

Oh my god, picture tiem!

Okay, so this is before the snow. But look how cute!

MIEN COOKIE!!

I like this pic. Anywho, this is the pond area up by B's house. And Loki has such a reliable recall, I can just let him go and run. This was before the three more inches fell. See it blowin' in? :3 There's also a creek, but you can't see it... you can only hear it right before you step in it.

Loki and I are standing on the pond now. It's completely frozen over. People were playing hockey on it, but I was too scared to go out into the middle. We're like 10 feet from "shore" here. I like watching him try to run over to me on the pond, he just ends up slipping all over and his legs go everywhere. XD

He likes to go looking for mice.

He kept doing this... we'd walk 5 feet and then he think he'd smell another mouse... he's gotten two, but not in this back area yet. He killed one when we were camping (actually, it was a vole) and then he killed one in my room here. >.>

Now we're back at B's house. He likes to eat the snow. Like... he runs, opens his mouth, and scoots it right along the top of the snow.

HAPPY DOG!

XO

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 19:45:41 GMT

So I get to start packing my shit. I'm so excited, but I'm so scared at the same time... and for a stupid reason. I know me moving out will cause drama, and I don't look forward to pissing off my aunt more. She's mad at me now, and giving me the silent treatment (which means... PEACE!) and not telling me why... but I am woman and know how the silent treatment game works, and hell no, I won't play.

I think she's mad at me for not being here for Thanksgiving.

Mine was nice and snowy, very, very peaceful. Thought I managed to get a slight sinus infection... and I'm still getting over it. D:<

My mom calls me a lot, and it is kinda nice to talk to her, I still don't understand why she misses me now. I probably never will, and I'll probably keep harping on this. My uncle is getting creepier by the day, he made some boob jokes to my sister (as in, held up and knife and fork to her boob on Thanksgiving and said, "I want some breast!") and if myself, Jace or my mom had been there, my uncle would probably have a shiner. My aunt was there and she just laughed. He creeps me out, too... and he is STILL unemployed. He doesn't even go out to look for a job, he just sits on his ass all day, watching TV. Sometimes, he'll get up to go to the pisser, but even that requires a scream out of him... like... "AAAAAAAAURGGGG! It hurts to get up from the couch!!!" I came home from the mountains today, as I do every Wednesday, and he payed me no mind until he was outside, saw me outside (getting my junk from my car) and told me to come help him put Christmas lights up. I just looked at him and said, "ohhh, nope, I can't. Gotta work soon," and continued to walk towards to the house. Then he whined at me... um... OH YES, THAT'LL GET ME TO HELP.

You're a big boy, I'm sure you can handle it. Well, probably not.

We had the new house inspected, and the only problem is the house's settling issues. It's got poor drainage, brings the meltin' snow right to the foundation... but Brian can fix it easy peasy. Then I GET MY GARDEN ACTION GOING ON!

OHHH, one mo' thing. I sold the Mazda to a cowboy. I didn't get much for it, just enough to get Loki neutered and new car tags. No vanity plates, though, as they can take 6 months to get to me. It's kinda weird not seeing it anymore. And I'm sorry, Nanibutt. I really wanted you to have her, but I needed the money. D:

Might not get Loki fixed like I want to. I lost my phone while in the mountains... I searched EVERYWHERE... also had Brian help. The last time I had it was in my car, which it's NOT FUCKING THERE so it means it must've fallen out... in a foot (or more) of snow... and I'll never find it until Spring. Yeah... the snow in B's backyard was almost even with the porch, which is about 18" high.

Jettabug!

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 05:02:13 GMT

Okay, third time is a charm.

Also, I know like none of you care about my car drama no mores, but... no one is online for me to bother. 8D

So I went down to go see the new Mazda, and it was real cute and all... scary how much it looked like my car. I mean just like it, only new. It was odd. On the way to go see the Mazder, me and the salesman passed my car, and he goes, "Is that your Mazda?" and I'm all "Hells yeah."

Is it like... you know how pets look like their owners? Are cars the same way?

He asked me if I wanted to test drive it, and I DIDDDD. I SO DID. But traffic was shit and I fail at driving a manual. Fuck first gear. D:< So we went back in, and started crunching numbers.

Something weird happened. I found out my credit score. It's actually... really good. 655. Considering I've only just started making student loan payments... and I just got my first credit card... I have no idea how it happened! Awesome! The guy who was doing the credit check asked me what I was doing looking at the Mazda, and then explained to me that with a credit score like that, I could get something a LOT better. So I says ok. Me and the salesman guy go back to filling out more paperwork. He says I might, miiiight need a cosigner, just to get the bank to act quicker on my loan and junk. Then he poofs away for like 20 minutes and I'm all, "hooohum, I have to get to work soonwheredidtheguygo?!?!?" then he comes back and asks me about my school. I can get qualified for one of their student things, but I have to go find a place that will hire me and have them write me a note, explaining how much I'll make upon graduation, ect.

I dunno. That one's gonna be tough.

Then the salesman guy goes, "ok, so for the same amount of money a month, you can get a better car." And I tells him, I says, "ok, let's go see it."

http://www.emichvw.com/VehicleDetails/1038332354

I'm in loooove. :D

Then I had to go get to work, and he told me we'd finish all the stuff when I came back. Well, he got really busy and then the bank hadn't approved my loan by then (but they should have). So now I have to wait and it's killin' me. Then I might have to wait til Friday so B can come cosign for me. Grr. But then after that, she should be mine, yes? 8D I also have to go to my school tomorrow, which is across the street from the dealership, so I might go bug the dude then, too. He was really nice and helpful and not creepy at all. :3

I'm excited and sad at the same time. I love my car, and I don't wanna see her go, but... the time is nigh.

'nother car post

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 07:36:03 GMT

I like this looking for a car thing. It's fun. While making a BM tonight and reading through this car book, I saw this loverly baby.

www.emichvw.com/VehicleDetails/1096868994

Oh snap! It's like my car now, only more... modern! And standardy! DELICIOUS. I always thought my car would be super fun to drive if it were manual, weeelll, lookit, there it is. Hush, I know it's a newer model. D:< It still looks the same! I think I'll have to get a paint job on it. Black? NONO, GREY!! NANI, WHAT COULD YOU SEE US BOUNCING AROUND IN?!?!?!?!

What happened to the Cavalier, you ask? Well, today I went down and saw it, and it was super cute! But the salesman wasn't pushy, he was just creepy as hell. Like Jack Nicholson creepy. And he wanted $1000 down, and would only give me $200 for my car now. Hey, she's worth more than that, she still runs, eh? I don't have $800 to toss at a car, anyways. And it was in a bad side of town, and the dealership was like... 3 doublewides duct taped together. >.>

I feel luckier about the Mazda... well... cuz it's a Mazda and I <3 the Mazdas. And because there's a warranty type dealy attached. I think if I bought the Cavalier and it died while I drove it home for the first time, they'd just laugh. Oh well. I'm probably gonna go look at the Mazda tomorrow before work.

I keep getting reminded of Pittsburgh, and I have all these fucked up feelings inside. It was a lovely place to be, I think. It reminded me a lot of Alpharetta with a hint of Syracuse. And trees. It was nice. But then I think more on it and I get angry. D8< I don't miss the east coast at all. 'Cept the ocean. But that doesn't count. I do miss the mountains, like were Brian lives. I love it up there. I love the weather, the cold, clean air, the snow, the trees, the animals. And it smells like... so good up there. Like wood smoke, nature and one of those LittleTrees air fresheners. Loki likes it up there, too, it's not so hot and gross to him. I wonder if the new Mazda as AC, I don't remember it saying it does.

I also get to thinking when I spend time in the infants section at work. I sorta want a behbeh. NOT anytime soon. And then I think of how I'll raise him (not having any girls) and how I wanna do it like... naturally. No bought formula or canned baby food. But I ain't breastfeedin'. That shit hurts, I hear. I wonder what it's like to be pregnant.

Do you have to teach little boys to pee standing up?

I'm also gonna try my hardest to get this stocking job at Petsmart. Tomorrow, if they let me off work when I'm supposed to get off, I'm gonna go bother the manager. PLUS, I can bring Loki to work!! He needs to get out of this house SO badly. He's starting to mimic the bad dogs' behaviour... begging, whining, begging... begging... running back and forth along the fence. The last one bothers me the most. That's a thing neurotic dogs do, and Loki is by no means neurotic. I give him 2-3 walks a day, we play, we train... granted, it's not as much as it used to be, with work and all. Oh, and I pay attention to him like... a lot. But he needs more, II think, and if he could come to work with me... oh yes. :D It would be good.

I dunno. I seriously need to get to bed. My head is killing me and I think Imma ralph. Blech.

Cadaver

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 05:32:22 GMT

Cadaver, the Cavalier:

www.massapawn.com/detail.cfm

It will be mine.

Yes, it's not a Mazda. Yeah, it's white. Yeah, holy shit, a manual.

Air CONDITIONING.

Psha, I can too drive a manual.

BTW, my car is on her last legs. D: I can't afford the $1000 to fix her and Winter will probably kill her. And my poor ass is poor, but hopefully I can get the monthly payment kinda... low. If not, weeeelll...

Intimate Moments with Moonie, part V (stolen from Nani)

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 17:04:09 GMT

01] What is your pen name?
Moonbyrn

02] How did you get the name?
I was trying to think of something with the moon and something awesome. I was also sunburnt at the time.

03] Do you use PC or Mac?
Both, but I like the Mac more.

04] What software do you use most often?
Photoshop, Firefox, Pencil, openCanvas (wish they made it for the Mac...), Painter, ArtRage, Illustrator... the list goes on.

05] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
Tablet, my sexy new Intuos. My other one got eaten by a certain dog who's name will not be mentioned... D:<

06] The color you use most often is?
Red, black, orange, and lime green.

07] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?
Inking, coloring and lighting.

08] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
The sketch takes me like 20 minutes (sometimes less) and depending on size, the inking can take me a couple hours at most. Coloring takes forever because I'm trying to get better at it/perfect my technique.

09] Do you keep your rough drafts?
Yup.

10] What kind of font do you use most often?
Arial, Impact and Helvetica.

11] What's the dpi when you scan?
300 to 600.

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?
I drink soder pop, lemonaide or punch. And jam to music.

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?
It takes me two to three months to fill up a 100 page sketchbook (front and back)... so you do the math. DO IT!!

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
ANYTHING!!! :D But preferrably sketchbuk paper.

15] What kind of paper do you use for sketches and drafts?
Sketchbuk.

16] How long does it take to ink something?
30 minutes to a couple hours.

17] Do you do doujinshi or original manga?
I used to, when I was obsessed with Zelda.

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?
Eh, it was ok. But now I think I'd prefer to use my own characters and story lines.

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?
Nope.

20] Did it get published?
See Previous.

21] Who are your favorite artists?
Hayao Myazaki.

22] What's your favorite Anime/Manga (cartoons/comics)?
Azumanga Diaoh, Excel Saga, JTHM, Nausicaa of the Valley of Wind...

23] Favorite Characters?
Iunno.

24] Any artists that you'd like to draw like?
Fuck no.

25] Do you buy books a lot?
From thrift stores, usually. I love books.

26] Did you ever buy a book to inspire you to draw?
Yup.

27] Any video games you enjoy?
Zelda, Pokemon, Kirby (which I just bought his new DS game) and MarioKart.

28] Any favorite characters from video games?
Venusaur.

29] Do you have a favorite writer?
Nope.

30] Any books you really enjoy?
Too many to list. :3

31] Do you write fanfics?
Nope.

32] Any music that you often listen to while drawing?
It depends on my mood. If I'm angry or depressed, I jam to Placebo, Linkin Park, APC, Incubus, Evanescence and Bright Eyes. If I'm giddy, happy of just ok, I listen to dance music.

33] Any recommended songs?
Anything by Justice.

34] Any web sites that you totally admire?
No.

35] Do you have any sites you want to go to every day?
FurAffinity sometimes.

36] What is your dream site like?
Left aligned, mostly black and grey with orange, green and red bits here and there.

37] Do you like your own art?
Yup. Actually kinda vain about it.

46] Are you a computer expert?
No. By no means. Maybe a Photoshop expert. XD

47] Want to become a professional artist?
YES. I want to be an art director and/or animation director.

48] Any other jobs you're interested in, besides illustration?
I also want to be a zoologist.

49] Any other specialties besides drawing?
I also: sculpt, design, paint, dabble in photography, and I know too much about animals. D:

50] Do you like to watch movies?
Sometimes.

51] What's your favorite movie?
LORD OF THE RINGS!!

52] Have you ever entered art contests?
Yeah.

53] When did you start drawing seriously?
When I popped out of the womb. (1987)

54] Anything that you often use as a reference when you draw?
Nope.

55] Have you met any of your fans online?
Yeah, haha, I have!

56] You have a lot of pen pals?
No.

57] You have a lot of friends that draw?
Only online. I only know two IRL.

58] What time do you usually go online?
If I have time, it depends.

59] Do you like to go to chat rooms?
Nope.

60] Do you have your own computer?
I have two.

61] What would you say to the person you admire?
I dote over them and kinda never shut up.

62] Do you think of things when you draw?
Yeah. And if I'm concentrating on an expression, I usually end up making it. XD So I'll sit there with a grumpy/angry face for god knows how long.

63] Have you drawn badly because you think too much?
No. But I do have off days. And I do get distracted.

64] Do you have any friends who are professionals?
I don't think so.

65] Where do you often hang out?
My room or Brian's room.

66] Do you have any artists that you don't like too much?
YES. Artists that can't come up with their own style. I hate it. Come on people, get creative.

67] Situations in which you really don't like being online?
Too tired, would rather be with Loki or Brian, busy with something else or playing something on the DS.

68] Situations you hate when it comes to having web sites?
Porno pop-ups, annoying music and loads of ads.

69] Something that makes you really glad that the Internet exists?
Taking to Nani and checking out other people's art.

70] What about things that make you NOT glad that the Internet exists?
Attention whores, art thieves and hella annoying people. Oh, and stalkers.

71] What's the first picture you've ever shown to the public online?
When I went by "Nickelfox" it was a picture of a very early Moonie.

72] Do you still have that?
Yep.

73] Has your drawing style changed a lot?
Yeah, ahhahaaaa, I can actually draw anatomy correctly.

74] How does it usually change?
Over the years, it's gotten cleaner, anatomy is better, details are higher, the coloring's gotten more vibrant and more detailed and I actually attempt backgrounds now.

75] Have you experienced artists block before?
Yesssss. D:

76] How did you escape from it?
Did other things until I felt THE UUUURGE!!!

77] What happens when you have artists block?
I don't think about it and I do something else.

78] Any artists that have influenced you a lot?
Nani and... uh... Koshi Rikdo. I think that's his name. He's the Excel Saga dude.

79] What made you start drawing?
I dunno. Instincts?

80] What made you want to get a web site?
Everyone else having one!

81] Where did your site name come from?
Let's see, Moonbyrn? Or my dream website? Sawtooth Studios... is... well, the Sawtooths are a bunch of mountains in Idaho and studios is just... needed. XD

82] What do you think about net manners?
Needed, and ultimately ignored. (agreed with the last two persons who did this)

83] Have you ever been spammed?
Yeah.

84] Ever thought about quitting your web page?
Yep. And I have, bye bye, DeviantArt!

85] If so, why?
DeviantArt sucks. The layout, the porn that claims it isn't and the LOOOOADS of annoying teenagers. Oh, and it was a popularity contest. It's supposed to be about art, not anything else!

86] About how many KB is each picture?
Before I compress it, digital pictures can be up to 40 megs. Then they go to about 200 KB. Traditional ones that I scan in are much smaller, like 600 KB to 150 KB.

87] When creating your site, do you use a program or pure html?
I use Photoshop and Dreamweaver.

88] Do you have good eyesight?
Nope.

89] If you can get any person's autograph, whose would you get?
Hayao Myazaki or Steve Irwin (oh noes) or Elton John.

90] What would you say to that artist when he/she autographs for you?
I'd hyperventilate.

91] Do you have fans of your art?
Yup, I know I do.

92] Do you like to draw on oekaki bbs?
Nope.

93] Were you good at art in school?
Yup. Better than most.

94] Did you take art lessons other than from school?
I took a few from SCAD, even though it's a school, too.

95] Have you drawn a manga?
Yeah.

96] What's your favorite phrase/quote?
See my FA page.

97] Do you think your personality is different externally and internally?
Sometimes.

98] What's your goal now?
Finish school, get a new job, get a new car, and move the hell out.

99] What do you have to say to yourself?
You can do it. You can do anything. :3

100] Lastly, what do you have to say to everyone?
You can do anything if you stick to it, put your mind to it and try. Oh, and stop saying how you can't do it and just give it a shot already. :D

Whatever, I need to call the insurance dude in a few minutes and finish my Portfolio Design project. And there's SNOW UP HERE!!! Yay, I love snow!

opopo

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 02:16:07 GMT

So I'm waiting for Brian to get home... at his house... right now. He should be here soon... gah. I haven't seen him in like two weeks but it feels like soooo much longer. D:<

Loki doesn't even look like that in my icon anymore. XD He's got jowls now... he looks almost like a bear with all his mouth-wrinkles.

Anywho, I'm so proud of my puppy. He's come out of his wimpy shell recently, and he's like a new, confident dog. He'll play with other people instead of cower from them. He still doesn't take commands from other people, which is super-grood. Last night, we were playing at the park in our neighborhood, and this dude comes running out of the dark section of the field (it's like 10 pm, I just got off work). Loki is usually off his leash because we're playing fetch and tug of war and we were when this happened. The man wasn't a jogger, he was just some guy, randomly running towards us. He looked grimey and was huffing and puffing and was half-dressed. It was kinda odd.

Loki sees the dude as a threat, and faced the dude, looking all, "what the shit are you doing?" and he started barking. I've never really heard him bark like he was, it was deep and he was growling a little bit as well. The man still was running towards us and getting closer. Loki then began to walk to the guy. This is when I got scared and got him to come back to me. I'm glad he's tough and stuff, but all I saw was him taking down the guy and I'd lose him forever. D:

I would still consider him a good dog if he did that... that's one of the reasons I got him. >_>

I hate being away from him... I think it's because he takes up so much of my time and doesn't let me sit on my ass all day. And I love taking care of things. And he's cute and lets me snuggle on him. :3

So does Brian... WHERETHEHELLISHEEEE?

Oh, and I got a new cell phone with delicious unlimited texting. Does anyone wanna be bothered with my text messages? :3

And I only have 6 months of school left. The class I have now is a portfolio prep class, and the only thing my teacher says I need more of are logos and web designs. I also want to throw together some quick character designs and sculptures because I don't want to be a graphic designer, I want to be an animator.

Alas, I could not afford art school. Bummerrrr.

the usual

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 04:08:32 GMT

I spent most of the day looking at a TON of foreclosed homes with Brian. They cheap. Some are ok. Some were seriously pieces of shit. One house had been broken in to and all of the copper (pipes, ect) was stolen!

I've also fallen in love with Lakewood... in Denver here. :D So we're looking for a place there. All we've been doing lately is talking about getting our own space... Brian wants his own kitchen (he cooks like a crazy man... he was gonna be a chef but didn't like the hours) and I just want... well... space. And a yard so I can have a garden.

I've also been learning to cook! I made zucchini bread! IT WAS DAMN GOOD.

Tomorrow, I get my APPLE!!!!!!!!! YAY INTERNETS/supermajor art uploadyness/Fur Affinity... I haven't been there in months.

oh, oh my god, I AM ALIVE!

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 17:36:14 GMT

HAHAHAHAAAA!!!

Well, sorta. I lack internet right now, so I can't upload any pictures or anything... so those I owe pictures to, wait like 2 more weeks.

In two weeks, I go back to school, which means getting a laptop, and because the Denver CollegeAmerica rocks hardcore, I get the right laptop this time. Yeaaah, a Mac. I don't know how to work them at all, but I must learn!

So I've been super busy! I visted Georgia, and ohmygod, I'm so glad I moved away! I don't miss it at all! I thought I might miss it a little, but NOPE! We took Brian's RV, and only once did we have to pull over because it got too hot. It's fuckin' old, so... it did pretty good. I didn't like driving it. D: In Atlanta, we stayed with Kelsey's friend, Christie, who spent the summer with us. Her house was just down the road from our old house, which is abandoned now. XD Funny. So we walked around the property, and I chewed of Brian's ear with old stories. I had a lot from that house, we lived there a while.

I also visited my old work, Waldenbooks and talked to my old boss. I miss working for the bookstore! XD Mah ex-boss gave me the name and number for a Borders in Denver that was hiring, but I actually got a JOB BEFORE I HAD THE CHANCE TO CALL!!! HAHAHAA! EMPLOYMENT!

ANYWHOOOOOOOOoooo, on Thursday, my parents and sister were going to leave in the RV for Colorado, and Brian and I were going to go to the Aquarium, but... that didn't happen. As soon as Brian handed over the keys to my dad, and he got 10 minutes down the road, the RV broke down. Brian spent the whole day working on it, and when he finally got it working, it started to RAAAAAIN! Like... holy shit, Atlanta in a downpour... no one knows how to drive. And we had to go to College Park to drop off Jace's parent's car and to take me and B to a hotel right by the airport.

I did not like leaving the hotel for any reason. It was right next to the old Ford plant... so... if you know the area, it's not exactly good.

Nice hotel, though.

Then on Friday, Brian and I went to New York. His family... is huge. I had to answer the same questions atleast 50 times! Gah! Nice people, though. A lot like my family, though, so it was kinda funny. His mom is wicked awesome. His dad is JUST like my father... so I didn't really like being anywhere near him. D: But I didn't have to, too much. I also learned how to shoot a little dart gun (not too hard) as well as a bow! I have perfect form (his mom used to be in competitions so she was helping me) but I am an AWFUL shot.

So as soon as we got back to Colorado, Brian ordered some little dart gun thingies and he's looking for a couple of good bows. >:D

And then, also as soon as I got back to CO, I moved the next day, up to my aunt's house. So now I live in Denver, and I love it. Of course, I'm not as close to the mountians anymore (you can only see them at sunset) but we get more snow up here. :D I also did nothing but get my shit straightened out with those CollegeAmerica fucks in Colorado Springs... who messed up big time with my financial aid. I talked to the head of ALL of the CollegeAmerica campuses, who was like, "What do you mean they didn't get the right laptop? They coulda done that... " and then he looked at my financial aid shit and was like, "...uh... this isn't right. What are they doing down there?" They got all my stuff straightened out, which roooocks.

Ohh, god, I'm watching Animal Cops and this stupid woman (who claims to know animals because... she's an animal cop herself) mistook a rabbit skeleton for a small dog. How do you screw that one up? Just look at the teeth! D:<

I also did a lot of job hunting... well... only like 3 days' worth. There was a job fair for Target, so I went and they hired me right on the spot! I start this afternoon, actually! :D I'm totally stoked! It's $8, which is pretty nice for a retail job and I WILL NOT BE A CASHIER! Fuck yeah!

*sighs* Everything is just kinda working for me right now. It's pretty awesome. I have a job, school, Loki and an awesome boyfriend. He's been helping me out financially... and that seems pretty unusual to me because he expects nothing in return... normally, it's the complete opposite. But he's got a good job, so it's no big deal to him, it seems. And he likes to be the "provider" which... I make fun of him for by buying him little things. X3

What's even moooore awesome is I told him that I think he's the one. Theeee one. And he tells me he felt the same, but didn't know how to say it. :D Since that night, we've been super-lovey-dovey and... talking about the future. When I graduate (at the minimum will be 7 months) we're gonna get a little townhouse (maybe even a house, they're really quite cheap in Denver) and then start livin' together. Brian's actually already been looking. :3

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Okay, I must go get ready for WORK!!!

ALIIIIIIVE!

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 01:22:15 GMT

SO WHAT HAS MOONIE BEEN UP TO?!

I will tell you. And I won't use a cut! Muahahahaha!!

First off, on the 4th of July, my family went camping. We stayed in a tiny campground about 30 miles outside of Walden, CO and... well, it was really stressful. My mom was on the rag and she was snapping at everyone. And everyone was supposed to be able to read her mind. And if you weren't all happy and giddy, she'd get up in your face. I felt so bad for my pop. All she did that weekend was scream at him. During that week, all she did was scream at me. It was... odd. She was acting the same way she did before she got remarried, like I was her husband. Fuck that shit. She's not much better now. It's really annoying.

But when I wasn't stressing out over her bullshit, I was having fun. Brian came along as well, and he got me, my sister and my sister's friend into wood carving. We went on little hikes, me, him and Loki, and we found lots of evidence of animals and stuff. There was moose poo and footprints everywhere around our campsite, along with the Colorado state flower, Columbines. They're REALLY pretty... look almost like alien flowers or so. I wanted to pick them all, but I think it's illegal, so I just took pictures instead.

Two seconds after taking this picture, my adorable doggie assistant decided to add his own touch to the flower and ate one of the petals. THANKS A LOT, NOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooo!! Oh, wanna see his picture? Yes, you do.

During the night time, everyone would drink... the first night, Friday, was weird because I drank a lot more than usual. I remember NOTHING! But I wasn't like... barfing or being an asshole. The only thing I do remember is just watching everyone have a good time. Saturday sucked a bit. My mother had been being a complete ass the whole day (she wanted to go home because everyone was making her mad... oh, oh no!) and I kept getting shit from her and everyone else. I was really stressin'. I spent the day trying to stay busy and whatever... but it's hard when everyone brought their dogs, and only mine knows how to behave. Everyone kept trying to stick their dogs on me, and it was like... shit, I do not need this! And then, in the afternoon (4pm or so) Brian and I drove to go pick up some firewood about 25 miles away from our campsite. We did, and on the way there, we passed a dead elk. We stopped to see if I could snag his skull, but I couldn't because it looked like he'd been dead a week or so... so it was much too fleshy for me still. And someone drove by and sawwed off one of his antlers. They couldn't get to the other because of how he was laying. I wouldn't have even taken it... it was a young bull, so he had TINY velvety antlers. Seemed like a waste of time to me. Iunno. I was pretty tickled that Brian suggested that we stop and look. I've never had anyone encourage me to pick up dead animal parts. Hehehe.

That night, eeeeveryone got drunk, including Brian. It takes a lot for him, actually, and I was glad to have someone drunk with me. We talked about a lot of serious stuff, including... future plans. Nooo, nothing's set, we were just discussing junk like that. Like living together... and... children. He keeps asking me what I think of kids... hell, I don't even know what I think about kids half the time. At about 8pm, I went and sat by this river by our campsite (it was still light out). I needed to be alone so badly... well, I did have a Smirnoff with me... muahaha! Loki kept visiting me, though, and at some point, Brian came down, too, and sat with me. I can't remember what set me off, but I started crying about my mother being such a hardass and how she's acting like she did before Jace (it was a dark, awful time, and I care not to think about it much). I cried about my lack of self-esteem. I cried about some other shit that I can't remember and I hope he can't remember, either! Haha. But I felt a ton better afterwards, and he... took it very well. He just sat with me, letting me get it out. It was nice.

The rest of that night is kinda sketchy. I only remember like... one part... and most people probably don't want to read about it. ;D

The next morning, I did not have a hangover. I've never had one. I don't wish to get one. As we were packing up the tent, there was a mouse under it and Loki ate him. D: Oh well... atleast I know now if I get any mice in my room, he'll eat them for me. XD

Sooooo then, we went back to Jace and Brian's house, and later that evening, he and I went to go see Get Smart. Not my cup of tea, but it was a cute movie nonetheless.

Nothing really interesting happened during the week. I just hung out with Loki mostly. Here he is... passed out on some of Brian's work clothes. He will be six month old in a week... holy cow... Brian says he's going to be a massive dog, but probably not 100 pounds. He used to raise puppies that would become seeing eye dogs, so he knows.

Sometimes his eyes open while he sleeps. It's kinda creepy!

Brian also picked me up a wood carving kit, so I spent most of the week finding things to carve into, like wood, soap and a candle. Candles suck to carve. D:<

On Friday, he and I got up kinda earlyish and did some running around so he could work on his RV. He bought a '77 Dodge Jamboree like... 4 months ago... and is just now starting to do work on it. I cleaned out the inside a little bit, but it's hard to keep it clean when you have a dude covered in grease going in and out of it. But he couldn't do too much because the auto part store didn't have the part he needed, so he just slapped electrical tape over this one leak and we drove it to Colorado Springs. That was kinda... scary. If there was a gust of wind (and there was!) we'd fly all over the road... and on a mountain pass, that's just a liiiiiiiiittle bit unnerving. It also didn't have a muffler, good steering and was just... jittery... the whole time. Loki sat in my lap the whole time, too, with his head out the window... and it's like a 2-3 hour drive. We found out later why it was jittery... one of the tires had shitty bearings or something. D:

Anyways, he's fixing it up because we're gonna drive it around the country. Woo! Then I have to fly to NY. Kinda nervous about it, actually. His family is a lot like mine, and I've never met a family that's anything LIKE mine! WTF! His sister scares me, too, but I'm not sure why. I think its because she asks the most questions or something.

This weekend... nothing too much happened. I hung out, drank a tiny bit last night (I looove Smirnoffssss) and today, I spent it cleaning out all of my fishtanks. Uvvie (my snakey) shed while I was away, and she managed to shed in one piece! So I measured it, and she's 39 inches long! Woo! My two bullfrogs are fuckin' HUGE... I don't think they weigh a pound yet, though, but I think they're close. Oh, and Azu is a boy, Mar is a girl. Brian's talking about building me a tank big enough for them... well, I'd separate them eventually. Anyways, he and Jace worked all day on the RV and got everything in working order. They also managed to find the time to take a peek at my car and got it working again! YAAAAAY!!! So I drove it down to the gas station to get some sodas, Brian came along. He likes my car. He doesn't like the fact he doesn't have to climb into it. Hahaha. I love my car. :D

It's good to have someone who knows cars and things like that. My car is so fucked up as it is. I told Brian everything that was wrong with it, and he says he can fix it, it's nothing serious. And nooooo, he's not just saying it... if it were something he couldn't handle, he'd laugh and say, "Oh shiiiit!"

Today is our one month aniversary thing. WOO! Doesn't seem like it. Oh, and like... a month ago, this flew into my face:

I was sitting in the car, waiting for my sister(s) and I had the door open. Suddenly, I hear this buzzing and chirping sound, and as I turn to look, this hummingbird hits me in the face! XD I ran out of the car screaming because I thought it was a huge locust or something and I didn't want it on me! He then got suck on the windsheild/dashboard and I was scared to try to pick him up because I didn't want to hurt him. He was so tiny! (Those are my hands in the picture) My mom also took the picture, and she didn't know how to get it to focus on close objects. Anyways, I managed to scoop him up and he sat on my ring finger like... perfectly. He was SO soft!! And then, he buzzed right out of my hands and into a nearby tree. Awesooome. NATURE ROCKSSsssssssss hardcore. XD Up in the mountains where Jace and Brian live, they have so many hummingbirds. I've seen more like this guy here, red ones, a purple one and one that was green, white and maroon. It's hard to spot them... they fly so fast. But I could watch them all day. They chase off birds that are MUCH larger than themselves... cool.

It's too early and junk

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 13:20:52 GMT

I've been stayin' at B's house... and it gets pretty boring during the day. Good thing I have my puppy with me. He likes it here, too... I take him like twice a day to either a lake or a river. He likes the river a bit because it's muddy, and to him, mud is the best thing ever. He goes swimming in it. XD I like watching him playing in the water. He makes this look when he puts his face in the river and it all bubbles up his nose. That could sound really dirty, too. I hope he'll get used to the water more... I'd want him to be able to go to swimming with me. Sorta... like when I go swimmin' in a lake, I don't want him to be bored.

Yesterday, I was on LJ here, reading an entry in a doggie community about KONGS, and then, when my dad got home, he brought me one. He found it in a parking lot at work. Awesome! It's like the perfect size for Loki, too! I had to clean it, though, it had like... crusty peanut butter inside. I wanted to buy one for like the LONGEST time, but they're sooo expensive! I'll probably have to buy one of the massive ones when Loki is massive himself.

He's also starting to show a more protective side of himself, which is pretty awesome. Yesterday, some Comcast guys had to get to a telephone pole in the backyard, and when they pulled up, Loki was barking and growling. It's not often I hear him growl, unless it's a play-growl. The Comcast guys were a little nervous about him and wanted to make sure that he'd be inside. :P Though, he's not that big, he weighs about 30 pounds or so, he must sound much larger than he is. Groovy.

Today, though, while my dad, B, and the room mates were getting ready for work, they told me that some guy might come by to get his tools later. B told me to keep the doors locked as the guy is a little sketchy. I wish Loki were a giant already. XD

But... see... if I get too nervous, I can sneak away to B's Jeep and drive off. Yesss, I could. It's a stick, too. Last night, he taught me how to drive a manual... and it was actually pretty easy! I drove into town, stopped at lights, ect. But I couldn't park... I was turning into a spot, and I stalled it, then I forgot to take it outta gear and tried to restart it (it made such an awful noise!) and then I tried to pull in more, stalled AGAIN and then I gave up. There were other cars around and I was afraid of smashing into them. I have issues of starting up... I'll floor it and it doesn't catch at first, then VROOM! Away we go! Made me too nervous!

I have to practice more, though. It's kinda fun. Then I'll be able to drive anything!

Hoooohum. I think it's funny... like... how nervous I was about B. I mean, I know now that I've got nothing to fear, he's pretty awesome. And he's as mushy as I am... and spoils Loki a bit as well. XD We've been a couple like... for 2 weeks now (I think?) and we're pretty serious. In August, I'm flying with him to New York to meet his family. He's from upstate, like... Syracuse or so... I can't remember. He made me talk to his mom on the phone, and I was all nervous and such, but she's actually pretty cool. Oh, and... B wants me to live up here with him. Did I think it was forward of him? Naaah... cuz... I'd wanna live here, too, I think. My house SUCKS. There's actually things to do here. And... I'd have a boyfriend to see daily! Yay! But we're not supposed to have pets here... and I'd want to bring my frogs, snake, fishies, cat and dog. XD I'm not sure how that'd work. *shrugs*

I realized something last Saturday. My family went to a Lake Pueblo, a... a lake... and B came with us. We did a LOT of swimming and just had a lot of fun. But you know in the movies, where there's a boy and a girl, and they've known each other since they were little and they fall in love and stuff when they're older? Like childhood friends and such? That's what B feels to me. It's pretty odd... but really nice at the same time. I feel like I don't have to explain anything to him, he already KNOWS it! And he likes my family, and my family likes him as well! That's always a good thing, yeah.

However, it does tickle me quite a bit that he plays like no video games. He's never played Tetris. XD I think this is a good thing, though. :3

My mom is driving up here today. I know she's gonna ask me all kinds of embarrassing questions, things I will never want to discuss with my mom. B said he'll answer everything, but I'm not sure he understood what I meant by embarrassing. My mom doesn't really... hold back. :P

I got up at 5:30... I think it's time for a nap.

I will be 21 in one month, two days...

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 16:41:55 GMT

In this class, people tell stories about wildlife and stuff. Ya know, animals they've seen.

And then, they try to explain things about these animals (such as my beloved Pronghorn Antelopes) and they're totally wrong.

I must be nice and try not to correct them and show how wrong they are. XD It does make me mad, though, they're completely off. Pronghorns don't have one horn and live in Africa. They live in my backyard with two horns and... while there ARE antelopes in Africa, they're not of the Pronghorn variety.

If I could, I woulda been a biologist. :D Maybe I'll do that later in life.

I hate politics! DX

nosubjectforYOU

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 15:05:06 GMT

There's an ad for one of those humping dog flash drives. Right here, on my LJ. It's really distracting! DX

But one of them looks like Loki. XD I'd get that one.

Loki is my new puppy... he's a German Shepherd/Rottweiler mix. He's almost 10 weeks old now, but I got him when he was 8 weeks. I know I lack pictures to show you guys... I'm at school right now (yeah, they gave me in-house classes and I'm mad about it! D:<) (not really, sigh) so maybe when I get home I'll upload some new pics. He's getting big, too. So far, he knows "sit", "plotz" (down in German), "come" and we're working on "stay". I've never had a dog who learned anything so fast. Oh, and I'm also trying to get him to STOP WHINING... I leave his sight for like 2 seconds and he goes NUTS. Sometimes, he gets so upset, he'll throw up and have a rectal blow-out. You know what I mean. Shit everywhere. >.< The only time he doesn't do this is when he's in his crate.

My dogs are weird about him. Ya know, I have two. Moose, the puggle and Ramsey the pomchow (we thought he was part Chihuahua, but I think we misheard the people. Plus, he's too big.). At first, Moose would play with Loki, all friendly-like, and Ramsay would growl at him and would run from him. And now, they've switched! Loki and Ramsey are inseparable... and sometimes, I use Ramsey as a babysitter (not for long, just for when I have to get dressed or something).

I got him last Saturday (er, Saturday before last) and I didn't work out at all... then day before yesterday, I went... the first time in a week. And I ran TWO miles! And I lifted weights! And I expected to have gained some weight because... well... I didn't work out and I ate a lot... but I LOST a pound! Friggen Loki keeping me busy! So I'm at 165 now. Yay!!!

I'm still kinda iffy about LJ.

OMG BLIZZZZZZZZARD!

Just when I thought LJ was an ok place...

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 02:33:23 GMT

http://otherjoseph.livejournal.com/35564.html

READ IT. All of you who do this LJ thing.

Looks like I might be leaving LJ as well.

Is there NO place anymore that puts its' users first?

Stop selling me ooout! First DA, now this?!